My good lord, and another year has come and gone but this particular passage was a painful one I’m still struggling to get caught up on things as the past year was spent in sort of vacume. I became quite ill after having Roto cuff surgery on my right shoulder in early July 2015… After the surgery which was done at Bay State, I left to have some “rehab”at a local nursing home that turned out to be nothing but nightmare on Elm Street fifty . I’m not entirely sure why they began to add to my medicine list, but they did and without my permission! By the time all was said and done, they had increased them to the grand total of 17 ! Three of them were so called vitamins, and the rest were for ?????everything from who knows what including ADHD as well as multiple tranquilizers. I’m of the opinion that this practice is normal and the staff gives them to all the residents to keep them quiet so they won’t make a fuss about things. After a month or so, I had a TIA, a mild stroke, then later the good old kidneys gave me a fright. Talk about nightmare on Elm Street! It certainly was…….The months began to add up, July, August, September,October passed by slowly, but when November showed its head, I’d pretty well had enough of it……..Medicine was given to me and little (pt) physical therapy was not! I began doing my own PT without letting any one know, and I started getting stronger with each passing day……Learning to walk again is not for the faint of heart. It was painful in the beginning but with each day the pain begin to diminish. .( thank goodness) now remember I’d been doing these excersises on my own. When the holiday’s began to arrive, I’d pretty well had my fill of “Pills” that screwed up my thinking processes, my ability to do the most meaningful things for my self and not being there for my Husband……Soooo I said thats it! Enough! I’m going to go home! I brought the subject up with some of the staff, but was it was met with all sorts of reasons why I should not go home!!! -Now remember, I’d gone to that facility for Re-hab. and received little of that! I’m very proud of what I’d accomplished so for, so I told them that ” I’m going to go home for Christmas, and that’s that!” To my surprise, a nurse at that facility, realized the struggle I’d been having, so she helped me with my delema and furnished me with the info on my meds, and showed me the process of how to get out of the place!! December 8 was my personal day of infamy. Dec.7th was the original one. So, here we are folks, not quite 3 months later……walking on my own, doing most of those things that people do without thinking much about it, and most of all, I’m Home where I fought hard to get to! Thank you God..
Today is the first day of my new life, and I haven’t written a word in a little over two years! This not only surprised me, but it shocked the hell out of me. Why? I guess it’s because the time slipped on by me, and I was completely unaware of it doing so! Preoccupied? You bet! I think the idea of feeling hopeless, depressed, and somewhat sad had a lot to do with it. My family, friends are few and I’m starting to feel ignored by them. There’s been a very large chasm between my children and myself for more years than I’d like to count. The beginning?, well it started with the father of my children, having 9 cardiac arrests and then comatose for 8 yrs, and then dying, leaving us all alone! No, I don’t think he deliberately did this, but he had a lot of forewarning…..and he chose Not to do anything about it. So here we are, 40 years later wondering what the heck happened to our family?? The children were sad, then as they grew older, the got angry and mad! I was and still am the focal point of this whole debacle and it looks like I’ll be this until I die. They’re both very responsible, educated and hard working individuals, but they can’t find it in their hearts to stop the way they’ve been treating me. Their Dad would have celebrated his 75 birthday on June 18th, and as strange as it seems, I actually remembered it and said Happy Birthday to him! I really wish that my children would start treating me with some respect and love. Wish they would remember that they’re Dad is gone, and I am their only living parent. It has taken a whole lot out of me, and I just want to end the nightmare but as an old saying goes “IF WISHES WERE HORSES, BEGGARS WOULD RIDE”
It’s Mid November! How the heck did that happen? Last I knew it was just the beginning of August! Time seems to be flying by, and it seems to be happening more often the older I get. I could hardly wait for the cooler temperatures of late October and November. This past summer seems to be exactly like a few years ago. “H.H.H” Hazy, hot and humid! What and why, is beyond me. We’d been very dry, and the gardens and lawns reflected it. Keep your fingers crossed so we will received the water we so desperately need, even now . I’ve been watching and looking around the lawn and near the woods for the little, subtle changes that are starting ….a sure sign of things to come. It’s quite interesting how the lowest plants ( we call them weeds) began to turn first. Lovely mustard yellows began showing, then some russet and reds on the shrubs in and around the edges of our land. Oh, I so enjoy the subtle changes that happened. The inevetable changes toward Fall then Winter.. Before we can blink, it will be the Holidays… Wonderful smells, foods family gatherings ,I can hardly wait! As always, “The Keeper”
I heard the muffled honking of our Canadian geese from over the small hill way out back. But then it seemed as though the noise and the volume seemed to increase as they got closer to the house. I looked out my kitchen door just in time to gaze upon the flock as they flew over our house in the classic V formation. I’m not sure they’ll hang out at the pond that’s located just a quarter mile or so from our place. Last year they stayed most all winter, because our Winter was mild. We’ll have to wait and see. I’m noticing that the weather is changing, temperatures in the mornings are quite cool and we’ve had our very first freeze! It was 26* outside the other morning , so we decided to have oatmeal for breakfast……it’s been since last spring since we’ve eaten Hot cereal. I’m noticing how we’re dressing up warmer in good old sweatshirts and jeans now that our mornings are cold. I have a suspicion that our Autumn will hurry on by us , and winter will rear it’s head earlier this season trying to make up for last year. It’s quite bright and sunny this morning, sort of cheers ya up while you do the morning chores. White Fox is still busy with the last of the jobs he does when he loses up for the winter…. He’s gathered up the corn stalks and made our traditional bunch to put around the light post along with the pumpkins. Our garden lays barren, looking forward to the deep winter sleep to come… Seems as though he’s always busy out side doing this or that, and he ‘s always said ” I can always find something out there that’s got to be finished.” Now’s the time for stocking up on your root vegetables for the winter. Stocking up with your potatoes, onions, carrots making sure there will be plenty for all of the lovely warm stews, roasts of chicken and beef. Oh, let’s not forget all of those grand apples, pears and cranberries that we can bake into glorious pies and cakes. Gosh, I’m making myself hungry! Well, I’m going to try making some of the traditional pies and pastry White Fox’s mother made when he was young…. Wish me luck, as I might need some. WELCOME AUTUMN!
Well it’s been quite a while since I’ve put my thoughts out there beyond my Woods. When this heat arrived I decided to slow up a bit. I try to stay cool by not exerting myself so much, by planning my day with small size chores, cooking, cleaning and keeping things simple. I have found that as I age, I can’t fight the heat as I use to when I was younger. So I settle in for a day spent with little jobs and even reading. I still try to read daily, even though I have AMD. My kindle is a blessing, as I try using it each day…I’ve got a slew of books that I’ve down loaded so I’m not without reading material……and it does pass the time in the afternoon. From what I’ve been hearing from our local weather persons, this horrible heat is going to persist thru the weekend and into the coming week! I am so very thankful for the invention of the air conditioner….who ever the brilliant inventor is will be remembered forever by all people everywhere! GOD BLESS YOU! The White Fox and I use our’s each and every day and will for the forseeable future. I look out my windows as much as I can, and no I am not peeking out at my neighbors! I just love to look at the subtle differences in the flowers and even the vegetables out back near the woods. I have spotted a bit of a change in the under growth out there. Across the road and into the deeper woods, you can pick up the slightest of colors and my dears, this is the start of the change over into another season called AUTUMN! It’s these little things that give me a sense of joy as well as a feeling of connection with all things good and sweet. I think you can say it comforts my soul. My Mom use to tell us to stop, look, and be very thankful for all the things that fill our sight and fill our noses…. I believe she was a very wise person. She lived a life that had it’s ups and downs, but she always said ” take time to look for everything God has given us,” it’s a Free Gift to Us….It’s Sunday once more, and the heat is still with us, and most of the United States… I pray this will leave us soon. People every where are suffering as well as all of our feathered friends, and furry critters. All of us need a big break and some blessed rain! Let’s do as our native American friends do…. Have a little dance for rain… I’ll bet it works! ME!
I’m sure of one thing, and that is a brand new name for my Blog is needed. Somehow it seemed the right thing to do, as the one I had just didn’t seem to convey exactly what I’d been feeling since the very first day. The name of the blog actually had me wandering about with the stories that I’d come up with. Does that make any sense to you? It’s as though a picture develops in your mind, and you begin to run with it, and sometimes, it leads to someplace you really didn’t want to go to. So as far as I am concerned, making this decision isn’t really that difficult at all. From now on I’m going to try to say what’s in my heart, mind, and tell all about the life going on around us here on our private acreage…with nature all around me, there will always be some goings on (most of the time). Lately most of my furry friends are keeping a low profile because of the heat! They’re using their heads by not exerting themselves very much. But I suppose they do have to go out and forage for their meals, but perhaps they’ll do it in the evening when it’s a bit cooler. Late last evening around 10:30 or so, I heard the”Wiley Coyotes” in the back area of the house. I know there was more than 3 to 4 of them, ’cause there was quite a bit of chattering going on between them! Perhaps his buddy “The Roadrunner” was out back taunting them? It’s very interesting listening to them as I lay back in my bed…. I’ve been hearing them on and off for most of the season, and I do not foresee them leaving anytime soon! My stories may be of things around here, as I do have a small list of ideas, so we’ ll see what develops…. Blessings people.
Today is going to be a real scorcher! This is one of the few times the weather people are actually agreeing with each other….what the what? Yes, I said agreed! There are very, very few times during one’s lifetime that our Weather People actually agree on anything! I can hardly believe it myself… I had planned to go out to have my hair done at “Ye Olde Beauty Shoppe”, and I prayed that I wouldn’t melt when I went outside to get into my car! Thank goodness there’s things like air conditioning in cars! Without that I certainly would have sweltered when I got inside. The trip home wasn’t too bad, but I certainly was glad to get into my house where things weren’t awfully hot. White Fox had just finished up raking the piles of weeds he’d pulled yesterday from the asparagus beds, so we decided to have a light lunch. The day seems endless. But wait! The end of this day isn’t that far off, and once the sun is down. it’ll be one heck of a lot better off. Hey, I just had a brain storm! Why not order out? PIZZA! Good Lord when’s the last pizza we had? Much too long, as I’m the lady who prepares supper around here. Good plan! Pizza!!! I’m not sure “White Fox” is going to like it, but ya have to try something to see if ya do like it, right.? I’ ll write again and let you know what happends. See you soon!
Looking in the mirror one morning, I sighed, and proceeded to comb out my really short hair. I’d done this so many times that I’ve lost count! “Holy cow” I thought, when’s the last time you’re hair was longer than 2 inches! I couldn’t remember! I stood there for quite sometime and then it dawned on me,” why not let it grow out”! What an epiphany that was!! I have lost quite a bit of weight recently, but with the same olde hair cut, well let me tell ya, I looked Yucky! I know, I know, your image is just a product of your mind, but if that’s true, then why did I feel so yucky when I saw myself? I was time for a change! I realized it would have to grow through a tough period, but if you keep it trimmed once in a while you’d be amazed just how fast it’ll fill in and lengthen. It’s now been nearly six months, and I am amazed! My hair actually has my old curls and waves, the ones I had as a teenager! Wow! I’m not a young beauty any more, however, even we “more mature ladies,” can make some real changes….. It makes for a much happier Señora!
You guessed it…… Rain! I almost choke on those words! At times I think we’ll all float away, so I try not to think about that too much…I know how to swim, however, “how long can ya tread water? Right? There are times that I forget just how bad things can be without the “stuff”. No fresh veggies or fruits, such as Asparagus or Strawberries……um. We just had our first strawberry shortcake last night and it was great! Some how the berry season is weird this year. I think we’ve had too much of that Wet Stuff! It can rot the berries as well as the veggie seeds we’ve put in the ground. White Fox planted some tomato varieties late last week, and ever sense then we have prayed (a lot)! Seems to me it was like this last season, too wasn’t it? I sort of feel trapped inside the house, when it’s foul out there. I write in my blog, or read on my good old Kindle to pass the time….doing the house work is ok, but that doesn’t do the trick for me. TV watching can be a bore most times, except for my favorite show, “General “Hospital” I’ve been watching it since I was in my late teens, early twenties. Somehow even when you don’t watch for a while, you can pick up where you left off fairly easily. My Mom watched long ago, so I guess I picked up where she left off! It’s proven to be somewhat enjoyable to do, rather than sulking or napping. My days seem to slow down bit by 3PM, so I make a cup of tea on my Keurig Coffee maker, then wander into the den, turn on that Big Flat Screen and settle down for an hour or so… Soon the approach of supper time creeps into my mind, so up I go to my kitchen to whip up our wonder-filled supper of ??? Depends on my mood and what I took out freezer earlier earlier in the day! Good luck!! That’s about it….The day winds down and we settle in for the evening, then it’s off to bed…. The end of another day by the Woods and Pastures…. Good night to all…
My day has been a quiet one so far. White Fox is out in the garden, doing “garden stuff, and seems to be quite content in doing so. This feeling of absolute quiet brings about a sense of peace and makes me think of my family and friends long gone. At my age, some of my best friends have left me behind, and have gone somewhere else, hopefully sweet and delightful….. Perhaps their loved ones were there to welcome them? I believe this happens. Pleasant to think about, isn’t it? Today is the type of day for cutting the grass, planning a picnic, reading your favorite magazine or book and so much more…It’s just up to your imagination! When we were younger there wasn’t too much that stood in the way of doing just exactly what we wanted to do , now there’s lots of things that may do just that!! There’s an old saying that goes,” You’re not getting older, You’re getting better”! Okay, just go ahead and prove it!! Seem’s to me that this “saying” is a bit screwed up to anyone who is over 60yrs of age! I’ve noticed that even mowing the lawn takes MUCH MUCH longer and that I’m really bushed when I’m finished! Am I right or wrong? We all love planning a picnic, right? However, it’s not in the planning nor the picnic that gets ya, it’s the cleanup, and the backache you’ll end up getting. I never ever use to think that way before, but now I do….history has proven me right. My sisters will agree with me, as we’re all over 65 now and we know what we’re talking about. All our neices and our nephew are heading for the “big 50” and we can hardly wait to hear from their mouths, about just “how tired they’re getting,” after doing stuff. Hee Hee. I will make you a promise though, I ‘ll not laugh nor will I chuckle when I hear them whispering to each other, “about their being so pooped out.” I will smile, show them sympathy, (cause I told them so). Somehow being the other side of “60” does have its pluses now doesn’t it? Ha Ha! Everyone out there has my Love and Blessings, Sammyjay bird…..
Saturday’s were always Laundry and Dusting day when I was young. It was almost a ritual in my home on Yale Street #14. There were jobs for the girls (3) and I guess we did what we were supposed to do, but not without some groaning. It seemed to us that the dusting took forever, as well as remaking our beds with clean sheets ” the correct way?” We never realized just how much help we were giving our Mother, not until we were Mom’s ourselves. I still do things the way I was taught by her and I am so very glad I do. As it turns out, everything she taught us to do saves tons of time!! Why am I so surprised? Moms are very sharp, excellent time saving individuals. It’s been proven to me, so many times that I haven’t got enough fingers and toes to count on! Now, our children are doing this stuff just like we did. Humm? Wonder why? All the dirty clothes, get taken care of with our great automatic washers. But then, the labor starts….. we take all the damp clothes and put them in the dryer, or hang them outside to dry. Then comes the blasted folding… Then putting all the stuff away….well, that’s a chore unto itself. All in all, that’s a terrific start to the famous Saturday Morning Ritual! But what about the dreaded vacuuming and dusting? Who’s going to do that.??? I say ” not me! not me ! But Guess What ? There’s no one else but me! Is there some sort of conspiracy going on? I think there has to be, and it’s been going on forever, it includes each and every mother and child on the planet! HELP! HELP! Times change, people change, habits change, and family rituals may change……but not the Saturday morning bed making and cleaning of the home…that will never ever change. Amen!
I just finished reading my niece’s blog on “My Magnificent Mess”, and as always it is terrific! She’s not only my sister Carol’s oldest child, but as it turns out, she is very much like a daughter to me. We’ve been quite close since she was born, (a cosmic connection?). She is the fine young lady that introduced me to blogging! Thanks DJ. My memories of Memorial Days gone by, are filled with family, picnics, Parades in Westfield, espically the one I marched in, and the fun we all had. When I was young, and that was long, long ago in the previous Century, we didn’t go away, as people do now. Then, families hung out around home, kids played in the back yard and Mom’s & Dads got the great food cooking! The smells were so darn wonderful as I remember…..everything from Hamburgers, Hot Dogs, to Mom’s Potato salad! umm! She always baked brownies, a Pie of some sort and the ever famous fruit jello. My Dad was the chief cook, as he always was each year, grilled up the “Wimpies” as we called the burgers as well as the “Puppies….As always, everything was just great! Dave, Carol, Jeannie and myself were stuffed to the gills…and of course Mom and Dad ! Memories of that time sit in my mind like sweet nectar… and can never ever leave. That’s the way I want it, too. Memories rise, like the smoke of the fire we used to cook the fare on. We ‘d roast marshmallows, trying not to burn the heck out of our mouths…but sometimes we’d do just that. Cold soda was the “cure” and we all loved the cure. It seems as though the days back then, were much longer than now. Perhaps it’s a prespective we all inherently gain as we grow older, as it seems everyone I know says the same thing. So this day isn’t just like any other day….. Lots of my old friends from Westfield High class of 1961, gave their lives for this wonderful land of ours. I know this because I recently celebrated my 50th reunion ……Without them. So here’s to Memorial Days come and gone, and To all the Good People that went with them! Be at Peace my friends, be at peace…….. Sammyjay Bird
Is it just me, or is it a very warm day? Or not? Well, I know I’m not having a DREADED Hot Flash, as I left those terrible days way back in the previous century. Sort of feels like late June or early July. I’m waiting for the weather Lady to tell us all that “the HEAT IS ON!” Just what we all want, right? We finished breakfast about 9:30 and WhiteFox went out to finish mowing the front acres, before it got hot! It seemed as if he was back inside pretty quickly…..” Boy it’s getting hot out there”. “I bet it’s almost 90* he said….. We sat in the Den trying to cool off a bit. I’m thinking, we’ll have to start using our air conditioners soon! How about today? Yea!! Good idea woman! I’m going to try and have a supper that’s not too complicated this evening…..” Good olde Puppies with all the fixin’s.” Simple but sweet. We wives and mothers, run out of ideas after a while, ya know! It’s quite a effort having to create a sumpteous meal each and every day of the week! The mind gets sort of soft and sponge* by the end of a long work week, so trying to be creative is next to impossible? Just feel lucky and bless by the heavens above, that there’s hot food on the kitchen table this evening….also say thanks to that tired looking woman for all the good grub! How’s about, “Thanks Mom!” Hee,hee,hee.
As I’ve previously written, I needed new glasses badly! The appointment was made, I had my examination, and the new glasses
were ordered. I picked up the new pair, and that’s when the fun began!
I’ve been trying to get use to them for just about a week now,
but they aren’t working out at all! First, I couldn’t see very well, and I had to hold on to things because I felt I would fall. I’d even have my hand touching the wall, so I wouldn’t feel dizzy.
I was so upset that I finally decided to call the Eye Place, and tell them what was going on. I was asked if I’d ever worn bi-focals before? YES I had. He went and checked my records, and then announced they could and would replace the lenses at no cost to me… Thank You God! Were they sensitive to my plight? I think so! I’m going to their office tomorrow and will leave the blasted glasses with them!
I can’t begin to tell you how frustrated I am without decent glasses. I miss all the activity outside my door, out in the back acres….The small squirrels hunting for the acorns that fell last winter, the blue and white violets that seem to be popping up everywhere. We all seem to take our eyesight for granted, until for some reason or another we lose it to some sort of problem! I’m one of those people… Why do we think that way? Perhaps we feel, nothing will ever bad happen to us? Guess what, guys. Bad stuff does happen! And can happen to us all. I now realise this fact…. Rather late than never! With my new developing Macular degeneration, the idea of going blind is now knocking on my door each and every day. So, I should appreciate the days and the evenings to come, right? I’ll make a promise to you, I’ll make the time to look outside my door and into the Woods of Easthampton, every day.
Talk to you soon. ME