My good lord, and another year has come and gone but this particular passage was a painful one I’m still struggling to get caught up on things as the past year was spent in sort of vacume. I became quite ill after having Roto cuff surgery on my right shoulder in early July 2015… After the surgery which was done at Bay State, I left to have some “rehab”at a local nursing home that turned out to be nothing but nightmare on Elm Street fifty . I’m not entirely sure why they began to add to my medicine list, but they did and without my permission! By the time all was said and done, they had increased them to the grand total of 17 ! Three of them were so called vitamins, and the rest were for ?????everything from who knows what including ADHD as well as multiple tranquilizers. I’m of the opinion that this practice is normal and the staff gives them to all the residents to keep them quiet so they won’t make a fuss about things. After a month or so, I had a TIA, a mild stroke, then later the good old kidneys gave me a fright. Talk about nightmare on Elm Street! It certainly was…….The months began to add up, July, August, September,October passed by slowly, but when November showed its head, I’d pretty well had enough of it……..Medicine was given to me and little (pt) physical therapy was not! I began doing my own PT without letting any one know, and I started getting stronger with each passing day……Learning to walk again is not for the faint of heart. It was painful in the beginning but with each day the pain begin to diminish. .( thank goodness) now remember I’d been doing these excersises on my own. When the holiday’s began to arrive, I’d pretty well had my fill of “Pills” that screwed up my thinking processes, my ability to do the most meaningful things for my self and not being there for my Husband……Soooo I said thats it! Enough! I’m going to go home! I brought the subject up with some of the staff, but was it was met with all sorts of reasons why I should not go home!!! -Now remember, I’d gone to that facility for Re-hab. and received little of that! I’m very proud of what I’d accomplished so for, so I told them that ” I’m going to go home for Christmas, and that’s that!” To my surprise, a nurse at that facility, realized the struggle I’d been having, so she helped me with my delema and furnished me with the info on my meds, and showed me the process of how to get out of the place!! December 8 was my personal day of infamy. Dec.7th was the original one. So, here we are folks, not quite 3 months later……walking on my own, doing most of those things that people do without thinking much about it, and most of all, I’m Home where I fought hard to get to! Thank you God..
Today is the first day of my new life, and I haven’t written a word in a little over two years! This not only surprised me, but it shocked the hell out of me. Why? I guess it’s because the time slipped on by me, and I was completely unaware of it doing so! Preoccupied? You bet! I think the idea of feeling hopeless, depressed, and somewhat sad had a lot to do with it. My family, friends are few and I’m starting to feel ignored by them. There’s been a very large chasm between my children and myself for more years than I’d like to count. The beginning?, well it started with the father of my children, having 9 cardiac arrests and then comatose for 8 yrs, and then dying, leaving us all alone! No, I don’t think he deliberately did this, but he had a lot of forewarning…..and he chose Not to do anything about it. So here we are, 40 years later wondering what the heck happened to our family?? The children were sad, then as they grew older, the got angry and mad! I was and still am the focal point of this whole debacle and it looks like I’ll be this until I die. They’re both very responsible, educated and hard working individuals, but they can’t find it in their hearts to stop the way they’ve been treating me. Their Dad would have celebrated his 75 birthday on June 18th, and as strange as it seems, I actually remembered it and said Happy Birthday to him! I really wish that my children would start treating me with some respect and love. Wish they would remember that they’re Dad is gone, and I am their only living parent. It has taken a whole lot out of me, and I just want to end the nightmare but as an old saying goes “IF WISHES WERE HORSES, BEGGARS WOULD RIDE”
It’s Mid November! How the heck did that happen? Last I knew it was just the beginning of August! Time seems to be flying by, and it seems to be happening more often the older I get. I could hardly wait for the cooler temperatures of late October and November. This past summer seems to be exactly like a few years ago. “H.H.H” Hazy, hot and humid! What and why, is beyond me. We’d been very dry, and the gardens and lawns reflected it. Keep your fingers crossed so we will received the water we so desperately need, even now . I’ve been watching and looking around the lawn and near the woods for the little, subtle changes that are starting ….a sure sign of things to come. It’s quite interesting how the lowest plants ( we call them weeds) began to turn first. Lovely mustard yellows began showing, then some russet and reds on the shrubs in and around the edges of our land. Oh, I so enjoy the subtle changes that happened. The inevetable changes toward Fall then Winter.. Before we can blink, it will be the Holidays… Wonderful smells, foods family gatherings ,I can hardly wait! As always, “The Keeper”
I heard the muffled honking of our Canadian geese from over the small hill way out back. But then it seemed as though the noise and the volume seemed to increase as they got closer to the house. I looked out my kitchen door just in time to gaze upon the flock as they flew over our house in the classic V formation. I’m not sure they’ll hang out at the pond that’s located just a quarter mile or so from our place. Last year they stayed most all winter, because our Winter was mild. We’ll have to wait and see. I’m noticing that the weather is changing, temperatures in the mornings are quite cool and we’ve had our very first freeze! It was 26* outside the other morning , so we decided to have oatmeal for breakfast……it’s been since last spring since we’ve eaten Hot cereal. I’m noticing how we’re dressing up warmer in good old sweatshirts and jeans now that our mornings are cold. I have a suspicion that our Autumn will hurry on by us , and winter will rear it’s head earlier this season trying to make up for last year. It’s quite bright and sunny this morning, sort of cheers ya up while you do the morning chores. White Fox is still busy with the last of the jobs he does when he loses up for the winter…. He’s gathered up the corn stalks and made our traditional bunch to put around the light post along with the pumpkins. Our garden lays barren, looking forward to the deep winter sleep to come… Seems as though he’s always busy out side doing this or that, and he ‘s always said ” I can always find something out there that’s got to be finished.” Now’s the time for stocking up on your root vegetables for the winter. Stocking up with your potatoes, onions, carrots making sure there will be plenty for all of the lovely warm stews, roasts of chicken and beef. Oh, let’s not forget all of those grand apples, pears and cranberries that we can bake into glorious pies and cakes. Gosh, I’m making myself hungry! Well, I’m going to try making some of the traditional pies and pastry White Fox’s mother made when he was young…. Wish me luck, as I might need some. WELCOME AUTUMN!
Well it’s been quite a while since I’ve put my thoughts out there beyond my Woods. When this heat arrived I decided to slow up a bit. I try to stay cool by not exerting myself so much, by planning my day with small size chores, cooking, cleaning and keeping things simple. I have found that as I age, I can’t fight the heat as I use to when I was younger. So I settle in for a day spent with little jobs and even reading. I still try to read daily, even though I have AMD. My kindle is a blessing, as I try using it each day…I’ve got a slew of books that I’ve down loaded so I’m not without reading material……and it does pass the time in the afternoon. From what I’ve been hearing from our local weather persons, this horrible heat is going to persist thru the weekend and into the coming week! I am so very thankful for the invention of the air conditioner….who ever the brilliant inventor is will be remembered forever by all people everywhere! GOD BLESS YOU! The White Fox and I use our’s each and every day and will for the forseeable future. I look out my windows as much as I can, and no I am not peeking out at my neighbors! I just love to look at the subtle differences in the flowers and even the vegetables out back near the woods. I have spotted a bit of a change in the under growth out there. Across the road and into the deeper woods, you can pick up the slightest of colors and my dears, this is the start of the change over into another season called AUTUMN! It’s these little things that give me a sense of joy as well as a feeling of connection with all things good and sweet. I think you can say it comforts my soul. My Mom use to tell us to stop, look, and be very thankful for all the things that fill our sight and fill our noses…. I believe she was a very wise person. She lived a life that had it’s ups and downs, but she always said ” take time to look for everything God has given us,” it’s a Free Gift to Us….It’s Sunday once more, and the heat is still with us, and most of the United States… I pray this will leave us soon. People every where are suffering as well as all of our feathered friends, and furry critters. All of us need a big break and some blessed rain! Let’s do as our native American friends do…. Have a little dance for rain… I’ll bet it works! ME!
I’m sure of one thing, and that is a brand new name for my Blog is needed. Somehow it seemed the right thing to do, as the one I had just didn’t seem to convey exactly what I’d been feeling since the very first day. The name of the blog actually had me wandering about with the stories that I’d come up with. Does that make any sense to you? It’s as though a picture develops in your mind, and you begin to run with it, and sometimes, it leads to someplace you really didn’t want to go to. So as far as I am concerned, making this decision isn’t really that difficult at all. From now on I’m going to try to say what’s in my heart, mind, and tell all about the life going on around us here on our private acreage…with nature all around me, there will always be some goings on (most of the time). Lately most of my furry friends are keeping a low profile because of the heat! They’re using their heads by not exerting themselves very much. But I suppose they do have to go out and forage for their meals, but perhaps they’ll do it in the evening when it’s a bit cooler. Late last evening around 10:30 or so, I heard the”Wiley Coyotes” in the back area of the house. I know there was more than 3 to 4 of them, ’cause there was quite a bit of chattering going on between them! Perhaps his buddy “The Roadrunner” was out back taunting them? It’s very interesting listening to them as I lay back in my bed…. I’ve been hearing them on and off for most of the season, and I do not foresee them leaving anytime soon! My stories may be of things around here, as I do have a small list of ideas, so we’ ll see what develops…. Blessings people.
Today is going to be a real scorcher! This is one of the few times the weather people are actually agreeing with each other….what the what? Yes, I said agreed! There are very, very few times during one’s lifetime that our Weather People actually agree on anything! I can hardly believe it myself… I had planned to go out to have my hair done at “Ye Olde Beauty Shoppe”, and I prayed that I wouldn’t melt when I went outside to get into my car! Thank goodness there’s things like air conditioning in cars! Without that I certainly would have sweltered when I got inside. The trip home wasn’t too bad, but I certainly was glad to get into my house where things weren’t awfully hot. White Fox had just finished up raking the piles of weeds he’d pulled yesterday from the asparagus beds, so we decided to have a light lunch. The day seems endless. But wait! The end of this day isn’t that far off, and once the sun is down. it’ll be one heck of a lot better off. Hey, I just had a brain storm! Why not order out? PIZZA! Good Lord when’s the last pizza we had? Much too long, as I’m the lady who prepares supper around here. Good plan! Pizza!!! I’m not sure “White Fox” is going to like it, but ya have to try something to see if ya do like it, right.? I’ ll write again and let you know what happends. See you soon!
Happy July 4th! Again Summer seems to be a fleeting thing, just as it has been each and every year that I can recall. Summers long ago when I had no gray hair, seemed to last nearly forever! Didn’t it seem that way to you? Let’s be honest now, they were longer than they are now! Right??? Well it seems that way to me and you’re not going to argue with those of us over 65, now are you! The 4th is turning out to be a very typical one…mowing the rather large lawn, taking out the meats for grilling, perhaps thawing out a Carrot cake for our dessert, then preparing all sorts of salads . I’m not sure which one I like best? The good olde potato salad, the macaroni, or the good ole garden salad with Hidden Valley dressing or Blue Cheese or Thousand Island dressing…..which one will we have? Big decisions are to be made before too long! Sometimes I wish the kids were home again. It would be so wonderful to see them once more, as it’s been several years since I’ve seen all of them together. But there’s that olde saying, “If wishes were horses, beggars would ride” and I’m not sure they’d drive all that way to comeup for the 4th of July? I’ll wait and see if they’ll call ? I’ve thought about it and have come to a conclusion, I’m calling them!! I’ll look up their numbers and leave a message! Can’t hurt now, can it . Getting back to the 4th, I’ve decided on good old “puppies in toasted buns”, good old pickles, chopped onions ,mustard and some dessert! Sounds good to me! So have a Happy 4th !!
Looking in the mirror one morning, I sighed, and proceeded to comb out my really short hair. I’d done this so many times that I’ve lost count! “Holy cow” I thought, when’s the last time you’re hair was longer than 2 inches! I couldn’t remember! I stood there for quite sometime and then it dawned on me,” why not let it grow out”! What an epiphany that was!! I have lost quite a bit of weight recently, but with the same olde hair cut, well let me tell ya, I looked Yucky! I know, I know, your image is just a product of your mind, but if that’s true, then why did I feel so yucky when I saw myself? I was time for a change! I realized it would have to grow through a tough period, but if you keep it trimmed once in a while you’d be amazed just how fast it’ll fill in and lengthen. It’s now been nearly six months, and I am amazed! My hair actually has my old curls and waves, the ones I had as a teenager! Wow! I’m not a young beauty any more, however, even we “more mature ladies,” can make some real changes….. It makes for a much happier Señora!
The day is done, the sun is starting to set over the west edge of the property…The wind that blew for most of the day has finally stopped…Our supper of steak ‘n’ onions has been devoured and we’re sitting here in the den relaxing,’cause the day was a long one for some strange reason; the sort of day that lingered on and on no matter what you did. It was a beautiful, sunny day filled with the noises of summer, the birds, insects, the wind in the trees, and the voices of children in the distance. It reminded me of years and years ago when summer made it’s wondrous entrance…back then the idea of “summer vacation”stirred the mind with all the things we neighborhood kids could do for entertainment! Cowboys and Indians, comes to mind as well as sandlot baseball, hide n’ go seek, and the Saturday Matinees at the Strand Theater….all for 9 cents!! Sometimes as I think back to those times, I do remember that it was hard to scrape up that much money! I know, I know, what’s the difficulty in getting ahold of a few penny’s, espically when you got to see several cartoons, 2 cereals that continued the following weekend, and the regular movie ? Well I’ll tell ya what, it was very hard. When you did chores around the house, you might earn 5 or 10 cents, then you had to figure out where you’d get a few more cents for some candy. But we all managed to do it somehow! All of the kids in our neighborhood walked together down to the Strand Theater off of Park Square. We’d line up to pay our 9cents and then entered the darken theater, found some seats,as the place was quickly filling up with other kids from the town and school. Magically the lights lowered and ……”Presto” the power of the cinema began….. Images flashed upon the gigantic screen, and a hush came over the roudy kids…..Ah, the great and wonderful Saturday Matinee had begun! It seems like that happened only a short time ago, but alas, it’s more like 60 yrs ! Whew, it’s hard to for my mind to wrap around that… I wonder if there are Saturday Afternoon Matinees’ anymore, and if there are, perhaps I’ll join in with the kids and line up to pay( ? ) goodness knows how much?? Be well and do enjoy your Matinees…. I will.
Again my dears, the mowers are humming outside my window. I sort of expected it, ’cause yesterday and today turned out sunny and warm. It’s been sometime since that has occurred, and we all are hoping that this will be the beginning of a stretch of weather that may”help”our gardens. As I said before, rain is needed but too much will lead soggy mess. We don’t want this to happen, now do we? Cutting the grass can be a pain, but is expected… Just think of how nice your yard will look afterwards! It doesn’t take so very long as it used to when we walked behind our old, clunky walk behind type. Sitting there in the seat of your Rider Mower, tends to give you a different slant on mowing the yard, doesn’t it? Ha Ha! We silver haired folks, really do remember the days of Pushing a mower over humps, bumps and a lawn that seemed to be endless. That, my dears, was a Job! I’ll write later ! 4:15pm….. Hi there I’m back….I put on the air conditioner for a bit, as started getting humid…. My age or something makes me notice when the temps go up. Who was it that said “The golden years”? I’d lIke to throttle the guy! haha. The White Fox is out in the garage cooling off. He says the floor of concrete aides in cooling yourself off. I’ve noticed that very thing when I’m in the garage getting into the car. Perhaps there is something to it? He’s finished up in the yard and has come back inside to cool off……(it did get very warm out there) I personally like the idea of air conditioning, as I have a physical disability and find humidity and warmer temperatures almost too difficult to handle. God bless them there air conditioners. Can’t blame me, can you? Much can be said for hiring out and having someone else mow the green blades! My neighbor has someone come to her house to ” mowa de lawn” each week like clockwork , and for her the lawn situation is a “no strain no pain”…. But the “Fox”prefers to do the acres himself, and there’s nothing wrong with that!! “Keeps ya young, and full of vim and vigor”. Happy mowing y’all…. Me
Last night as I was turning over in my bed, I thought I heard a low noise outside. It reminded me of something I’d heard not too long ago. I laid there straining to hear it once again…..seconds turned into minutes, then all of a sudden I heard it and more distinctly this time! It was my old friend, returning to his summer home…. My Grand Old Owl! What a wonderful, wonderful surprise. Each summer since we built our home, he’s been here to greet us with his form of Hello! I so look forward to hearing hear in hearing him each year, it’s sort of a tradition around the place. I’ve never given him a name but perhaps I should. I’ll think on it for a while. I’ve only caught a glimpse of him flying from tree to tree, a sight to behold! I know it’s a male, ’cause of his coloring and size too. The first time I spotted him, I was shocked as well as surprised because of his size! He’s not an itty-bitty guy, ya know….he’s sort of a king size raptor with talons and beak to match. I had one time wondered, where all the squirrels were going? Yup! You got it…. They were all disappearing down his gullet! He’s sort of a blend of king kong and a pterodactyl. So I respect him! Ya can’t do anything else, right? He’s on the prowl each night, flying quietly through our woods. By the time the small critters know he’s around, it’s sort of too late, if ya know what I mean…Some critters are beneficial, but some are are just plain pesky! The thing is I’m not sure how he figures it out? Perhaps it’s an ingrained talent only he has? And he’s really doing his job! Only the good Lord knows for sure? I’m an optimist at heart, so I do look forward to listening for him each evening, as his calls reassure me that all is well ! God bless my Great Old Owl!
PS… There’s nothing else more wonderful to hear than the birds and animals making their presence known to us at the end of a long day. We set aside time just before we sleep just to listen. Still listening..ME
Sounds of lawn mowers filled the air this morning…quite typical for June. I can remember those days long ago, when we walked behind the good old push kind… It seemed to take forever to cut the grass, so we girls were happy when our Dad gave the job to our brother Dave. He was the oldest of our four children, thusley the job went to him! We girls would sit on the back steps, and watch him as he went back and forth. I think Dave actually hated the idea that we girls, all three of us got away with not having to mow the grass? And as I think back on it, I can’t really blame him. My Fox says he’s real tired of doing the lawn, as it’s over an acre , and even doing the trimming with the push mower sort of tires him. He doesn’t mind the Rider ’cause he sits for the main part of the cutting. Right at the moment, he’s sitting out the rain showers in the garage. It’s dry in there so he can putt around or just sit in his chair looking down the driveway towards our wonderful woods. Off to the right of the woods, there is a very large field that is hayed every summer. The traffic is light on our road, and this is just great as far as we are concerned. It can be very quiet at times making us feel we’re way out in the boondocks somewhere and I kind of like that! White fox and I have worked most all of our lives, and we began doing this around the ages of 10-12 yrs old. We worked in agriculture.. Planting onions and various vegetable plants by the acre and tobacco. Very tiring to say the least. But we didn’t mind ’cause we were young and foolish. Now it’s a different matter. Ya can’t argue with Mother Nature…she has plenty to say about such things! The mowers are quiet now and have been for a bit, showers can slow you down ya know! Everybody down the road finished up their lawns just around the same time as My Fox. Lunch is over, time to begin finishing up the chores and things. After 3 pm everything seems to slow down just a bit… The Fox finished the yard work, and I finished up here in the house…NOW I have to begin to settle in on the big decision of Supper, what to have for a variety , not the same old, same old…Ya know? So I’ll say bye for now. ME
You guessed it…… Rain! I almost choke on those words! At times I think we’ll all float away, so I try not to think about that too much…I know how to swim, however, “how long can ya tread water? Right? There are times that I forget just how bad things can be without the “stuff”. No fresh veggies or fruits, such as Asparagus or Strawberries……um. We just had our first strawberry shortcake last night and it was great! Some how the berry season is weird this year. I think we’ve had too much of that Wet Stuff! It can rot the berries as well as the veggie seeds we’ve put in the ground. White Fox planted some tomato varieties late last week, and ever sense then we have prayed (a lot)! Seems to me it was like this last season, too wasn’t it? I sort of feel trapped inside the house, when it’s foul out there. I write in my blog, or read on my good old Kindle to pass the time….doing the house work is ok, but that doesn’t do the trick for me. TV watching can be a bore most times, except for my favorite show, “General “Hospital” I’ve been watching it since I was in my late teens, early twenties. Somehow even when you don’t watch for a while, you can pick up where you left off fairly easily. My Mom watched long ago, so I guess I picked up where she left off! It’s proven to be somewhat enjoyable to do, rather than sulking or napping. My days seem to slow down bit by 3PM, so I make a cup of tea on my Keurig Coffee maker, then wander into the den, turn on that Big Flat Screen and settle down for an hour or so… Soon the approach of supper time creeps into my mind, so up I go to my kitchen to whip up our wonder-filled supper of ??? Depends on my mood and what I took out freezer earlier earlier in the day! Good luck!! That’s about it….The day winds down and we settle in for the evening, then it’s off to bed…. The end of another day by the Woods and Pastures…. Good night to all…